Emily is 14 today, or as Eva would have you know, "Emily turned my favorite number today!" Eva has been infatuated with the number 14 since she was three years old, half her life. She used to write the number fourteen on tiny post-it notes and put them around the house, proudly asserting that it was her favorite.
To the mass of people who have said me over the years, "oh, they grow up so fast," I have this to say:
OK FINE. YOU ARE RIGHT. IT IS TRUE DANGIT!
She's my first baby. Sob. As in cry, not the other one. Yesterday a song came on the radio that was popular for several months of 1998 that followed her birth. I remember laying with her on more than one night listening to these words and feeling overwhelmed with emotion as I thought of this most precious gift I had ever received. Every line felt like it was written for that moment of my life, looking at her, loving her. My sweet baby girl.
I could stay awake just to hear you breathingI'm nearly certain that the woman that wrote that song wrote it about her baby! I knew it was about me and my baby anyway. Don't think about Steven Tyler, that just messes with my imagery.
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
Don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna miss one smile, I don't wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you, right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close, feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment for all the rest of time
Happy 14th Birthday Emily! You are such a lucky kid that your awesomeness exceeds your pain-in-the-buttness. I love you girl. Even though you won't let me hug or kiss you anymore, maybe I'll steal a hug, or at least give you the 14 spankings for your birthday that you deserve.